I love stimulating conversations.
I have recently begun a new friendship/relationship. His name is Brandon and he is wonderful! Every conversation we have turns into something deeper and more thought provoking. We can sit down to study for political science and end up talking about the meaning of life and the hardships we endure. He constantly encourages me in everything I do. He praises me for my talents, he helps me keep my chin up when life gets me down, he reminds me of my wonderful qualities. He confides in me, he trusts me with his secrets, he makes me feel special and important. He is a wonderful person.
Over the last two weeks, we have had several "deep" conversations. It's funny, I feel comfortable talking to him about anything. And the poor guy sits and listens to me blab on and on. And when I'm done talking, he responds. He actually listens to what I say, he hears what I say, he engages in a conversation. We talk about our past, present, and future. We talk about our thoughts, our hopes, our aspirations. We encourage each other. It's been a long time since I have had someone like him in my life.
Honestly, I can't express how grateful I am for him. I'm at a point in my life where I am questioning many things. I'm dealing with a lot. I have so many fears and thoughts and worries that I can't seem to let go of. But talking to this incredible man makes some of those worries and thoughts and fears easier to digest.
I've said it before and I'll say it again: My life is not hard. I find it challenging, but in comparison to what many others deal with each day, my life is not hard. I've never had it easy, either. I've always had to work for what I wanted. I'm thankful for that. If I want something, I will work my butt off until I get it. I don't want everything handed to me; I want the satisfaction of knowing I did it.
Life is not easy. But with wonderful people like Brandon and my best friends Mandy and Tricia and my sister Britini around me, it becomes a little bit easier to handle.
